get here

one of my most heartfelt songs....


You can reach me by railway, you can reach me by trailway
You can reach me on an airplane, you can reach me with your mind
You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man
I don't care how you get here, just - get here if you can

You can reach me by sail boat, climb a tree and swing rope to rope
Take a sled and slide down the slope, into these arms of mine
You can jump on a speedy colt, cross the border in a blaze of hope
I don't care how you get here, just - get here if you can

There are hills and mountains between us
Always something to get over
If I had my way, surely you would be closer
I need you closer

You can windsurf into my life, take me up on a carpet ride
You can make it in a big balloon, but you better make it soon
You can reach me by caravan, cross the desert like an Arab man

I don't care how you get here, just -- get here if - you can

i'm getting there, soon.

where?

it's been ages since i've written any thoughts here. i've had so much to think about over the past month but i haven't had the inspiration to pen anything down.

i really don't know what i'm doing with my life. it's aimless, meaningless and i genuinely don't know what i'm living for. living to make people happy? or maybe to make myself think i'm happy. i feel somewhat empty and restless... don't have a care for anything.

all of my life i struggle to keep up with the needs of others. pleasing people and adhering to their whims and fancies. i have a shadow over me.. cast... sucking the living daylight... transporting me into the same time in the past. thinking about the same disappointments i've got from the men i love. the same kind that i fear so much... the same disappointment that i fear would happen again. i cannot stop caring but yet caring has taken a toll on me. why do i care so much? why do i feel like i need to care?

what is it i want? where is it i'm going?

aimless.. in circles...

nowhere