it's undeniable that love is such a sensitive and fragile thing. you'll never know when it would become jeopardised by the very means of your own actions.
as innocent as these actions may seem, we still have to pay a price for them.
but it's through these trials and tribulations that we discover ourselves and our other half - it being part and parcel of the growing process. every single of such events would be recorded into the relationship book and our mind takes references from them every now and then.
i have learnt and will continue the journey to knowing you.
of late i realised how much my thought process has degenerated. i'm no longer that nimble when it comes to thoughts and systematic process flows. i cannot mention how i've deteriorated since the school days where managing 8 subjects didn't seem to be that much of a stress. now it's so daunting, the prospect of having to handle 8 closely packed exams over the course of 3 weeks.
at the same time i'm battling insomnia that always comes whenever i'm feeling stressed. it's so frustrating when after 2 hours you're lying on the bed stark awake.
of course, so far i'm still surviving.
i keep thinking about how it's all going to be over in little less than 3 weeks and before i know it i would be on the red eye back to singapore. i cannot wait for that day to come.
i also cannot wait for the day that i'll see Gordon again. every night before i (try to) go to bed the scene where i see him at the arrivals and we embrace just replays in my head. over and over again. like a spoilt record.
bitter sweet torture.
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