my salvation.

i realised that he is the only one who can cure my internal dismal.

i felt really awful when i woke up this morning; as usual i didn't manage to sleep well and there were leftovers from that plate of depression i had late last night. all i wanted to do was just sleep the whole day through but i had no choice than to get up to run some errands.

sitting outside fix coffeeshop drinking iced latte and reading my book was nice. the weather was splendid today. i felt the gentle rays of the sun and soaked up every positive energy i could get from the awesome weather. but my mood these days free falls like a rollercoaster. soon, i was feeling like i was in the depths of the ocean - inexplicable darkness and depression stood overcast.

when Gordon called, i was in the most awful of moods and he told me he'd never heard me so rude to him before. it wasn't that i was rude, i was just really depressed.

i'm so sorry about that deer, i didn't mean it and i hope you'll understand..

15 minutes into the conversation, i was already feeling much better. i felt bad for him always having to cheer me up but it does the trick most of the time. even until now the depression has gone away and i'm feeling more relaxed than ever.

he was the reason i felt sad, but he gives me more reasons to make me happy.

i love you no matter what:)

(and btw, no matter how lonely i feel, two-timing will never be an option for me!)