stumbling block.

i don't want him to resent this whole routine of us talking everyday.

maybe it's better for us to talk less and for him to have more space. i have a 9am - 4pm schedule whilst he has a 9am - 7pm schedule. 3 hours could make a lot of difference. i have 3 hours more of free time and i sleep much later than he does. guess i have more of a day's worth.

i hate it that i'm behaving this way. i want him to do whatever he wants because it is his life after all. i could be bound to rushing home everyday to skype with him but i don't want to superimpose the same thing on him because he's not as alone as i am. he has friends, a family around him and life, while i don't. i can afford to spend all that time but he can't.

on the other hand,

i feel upset whenever i have expectations. i guess i shouldn't have any expectations at all. the lower the expectations, the lower the disappointment.

so the perfect solution is for me to just leave him as he is and let him come to me if he misses me. i could live with missing him but not calling him. i could. i just don't want him to feel obligated towards me.

i need to dive into my books from tomorrow.